Day 27

I began this blog to help myself be more accountable about my journey to get fit ... frankly I find myself on here following other blogs much more. I'm finding it helpful to hear other people's stories. The problem is I've been leaving my own out. So last week I had pulled a muscle in my groin so I rested all week. I began my week 3 workouts this week instead so I didn't miss any. When I began working out again I found that suddenly I had way more upper body strength. It's so weird but now I can do pushups properly ... granted not a lot yet, but on my toes none the less. I'm also able to follow my workouts closer with less rests. I'm feeling so strong and I love it. NOW the problem is my joints are feeling the stress. I went and got a supplement to help with joint support because Insanity is hard my body. But I still love it. It's hard to believe I'll be starting week 4 next week. My problem before was that I'd begin a weight loss plan and start seeing some results and then stop. I don't know why, but I would never see it through to my goal. This workout I look forward to everyday and I'm so thrilled about that.

One thing that is a struggle for me is my diet. I'm not on a "diet" so to say, but I'm watching my calories and my choices overall more closely. I'll do really well and then have a bad day or two, and then do really well again. I need to learn how to say no to the foods that I love that are just bad choices. It's so hard. Especially at work when people bring food in ... I just can't say no. Which, I suppose, is not a big deal ... but then I need to learn how to just have a little and not gorge myself. I am pretty proud of my alcohol intake lately. I go out with my friends all the time, and now I'm at the point where I have no desire to drink because of the extra calories. I don't need them, or want them. I went out earlier this week and had a drink and a couple of shots and that was it. Tonight I had one shot with a friend and had water or diet soda the rest of the night. I'm pretty proud of that. Most night I wouldn't even know how much I drank because thats just what we would do. That kind of makes me sick to think about it. I'm proud that I can go out and not need to drink because aside from my other weaknesses with food, that was where a lot of my empty calories would come from.

Overall I keep making small steps in the right direction along with my hardcore exercise program ... eventually I'll get where I want to be. I just hope my joints feel better with the extra supplement ... that would really get in the way of my workouts.

~*Sweet dreams*~