Day 10: i'm bad at this game

So I hadn't really been a blogger before, and I haven't kept a journal in years ... but I wanted this to be a daily update of my progress, and somehow I've skipped 5 days. Go figure. The good news though is that I'm still going strong with Insanity. I haven't officially taken any new measurements/weight but I was curious and checked my waist ... down an inch and a half ... as of a couple of days ago.

I'm a bit frustrated with myself, because my eating habits still aren't where they should be. I also need to remind myself that I spent years and years with poor eating habits. And I'm not kidding ... I used to be able to eat so much, and so much JUNK! There has been a huge improvment in my diet. I eat breakfast. I eat regularly. I eat a lot of protein, so I rarely think about eating. This is good and bad. Bad because I should be eating more calories than I think I am during the day. Good because then I don't feel the need to binge. I think my big problem is I'm not writing down what I'm eating. I even have the notebook and pen in my purse ... so what's my excuse?? ... I don't have one. I just don't do it. It's a pain to log my calories ... but even just writing down what goes in my mouth makes me so much more aware. Another downfall of mine is work. There is always food ... and GOOD food! Lots of Mexican food ... and Doritos ... and sweets .... and it's awful!! I really need to learn how to look at my favorite foods and say no. Even if I'm fully satisfied I have such a hard time passing these things up. I really need to work on that.

I also need to work on blogging more. Digging deeper into what I'm thinking and how I'm feeling. I feel like I'm so used to just skimming the surface when I talk about how I'm feeling, that its difficult for me to really get in there and pull out the important stuff. I really feel like my job has gotten me used to small talk, because that's all I do everyday ... with my customers, not my coworkers. Which happens to be the group of people I'm most open with.